Saiun - technicolor Reishin

Maintaining mirrors and the recent LJ exodus.

It's that rare beast: an unlocked entry!

My concerns these days are pathetic and not at all fun to read about. The one exception, I'd say, is the cats. Who doesn't like cat stuff? I mean.

...Yeah, I mean. If you don't, just don't tell me.

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So, about the subject line.

Listen--I hate ads and like convenience, so I'll spend money on journal platforms if that's what it takes. Even though I don't post often nowadays, I still like to have an unnecessarily extensive selection of user icons to choose from, and LJ specifically locks its mass-entry editing behind a paywall.

Livejournal has shitty customer service, though--not to mention questionable policies and zero transparency, or at least that's how I remember them. (I'd be lying if I claimed to have paid attention the last two years.) I don't want to give them money anymore. Dreamwidth costs enough, considering my post frequency. More than enough. I kinda sorta want to get rid of the LJ account, but I have a few concerns about that:


  1. There might be people following me that still use LJ as their primary writing/reading service;

  2. There are probably a lot of backlinks to my so-called meta posts, which I've been encouraged to keep public despite my desire to shut the whole thing down;

  3. I don't want to risk losing the name.



While at this point I think it's dumb and paranoid to think people out there still hate me enough (usually for RPGamer stuff, but there were other... incidents) to impersonate my account, it HAS happened before, and I'm not interested in leaving that door propped open even a little. The one benefit that maintaining the LJ account has is that it's an established area I've been known to occupy for over a decade.

So, the point? I'm considering locking down the content on the LJ mirror (though I may unlock specific entries, like the ones on this list), and posting primarily on DW without cross-posting. However, I'm not sure how LJ's dead account detection works, though, so I might continue cross-posting, but stop keeping track of comments. Considering how inactive I've been, that won't make a difference for most. Just to keep everything clear:

EVERYTHING WILL STILL BE AVAILABLE/OPEN ON DW.

One of the things I'd like to do (eventually) is streamline what's locked and what's open so my journal looks more coherent from the outside. You know, just in case. But that's really hard to do--not to mention a whole ton of work I don't need--when you've got to repeat those changes across platforms.

Now, I'm buried under work/classwork at the moment, and probably won't make these changes any time soon, but I wanted to open comments to anyone who might have them. I've mentioned this in locked entries before, and have pared down my original intentions, which involved locking/deleting everything. If you have an opinion:

  • On DW, everyone with a valid account can comment.

  • On LJ, comments are restricted to my Friends List to avoid spam. Sorry. :/


If you don't have an opinion (which is what I expect), I'll do something about this lockdown when I need to avoid some real work or a final project. So, sounds like we're looking at December. :P Possibly earlier, but... yeah, no.

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Tales of Symphonia - taste the rainbow

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Oh look, I'm still having feels over Tales of Symphonia and writing dumb stories for it. By "dumb" I suppose I mean fangirly, since this canon divergence is an indulgence for me, but it's so gen it hurts, so. Not that kind of fangirly.

I uh, actually have not indulged myself much with fiction lately. The story I'm working up to sending out is kind of an indulgence, but only in the sense that it's about a favorite subject. As far as doing work on it goes, the process is difficult and involves fighting myself every step of the way.

Maybe I should get back to work now. It's only 3 AM. That's way too early to go to bed.

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ToB - Perfect World

ToB gives me ALL THE FEELS

I want to just eat these characters up, and not even because there's a character that had the nerve to remind me of Yggdrasil (although I won't say no to eating him up)...

The stupid pun is unintentional.

I don't know what to do about this. The feels, I mean. I've got ~3k words written of a story that may or may not even be decent (or creative), and the will to write more... or should I say, not enough willpower to STOP myself from writing more. For the first time in many, many years, the only way I can exorcise these ~feelings~ is by writing fic.

So in that sense, it doesn't matter if the thing is good. Once I get it out, maybe it'll leave me alone.

OR MAYBE IT WON'T.

Anyway, the story...Collapse )

Yeah, I wish I had a more coherent reaction to the ending, but even if I write fic, I doubt I'll get back into ~meta~, so screw logical analysis.

Oh, but Magilou's story? That's also worth some fic. Goddammit.

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Wow. Well, my brain has no trouble coming up with strange Innominat fic ideas and pairings! plz hand me some bleach, none of which are very nice and all of which are entertaining, and I'm disturbed by that! Just a little.

I just left the Mount Killaraus, am about 40-45 hours in, and quite close to the end if I'm reading the signs correctly. My characters are around level 50, give or take a few, which I'm not sure is high enough. Side quests are an option, since I haven't bothered with those yet (e.g. the Omega Elixir, monster contracts, Level 4 Administrative Zones), or I guess it wouldn't hurt to try the last area and see if I need to grind up some experience. Doing that was so frustrating in Zestiria that I might look it up instead, though.

I've seen ending spoilers (which I wasn't looking for at the time, actually), so I have a good idea of what's going to happen. This is a lucky case, in that knowing what's going to happen doesn't ruin the experience, buuuuut... that's probably why I'm already devising stories that will, arguably, ruin everyone else's experience. :P

This is all making concentration on actual work a real pain.

Guess I'll be trying an Innominat icon, seeing as I love him unreasonably. Maybe it'll actually turn out well this time.

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ToB - Eleanor

Eleanor may be okay, but she's no Edna.

Somewhere in 2016 all of my Photoshop brushes disappeared, and I can't remember where I got any of them.

:(

Anyway, Tales of Berseria. I'm still only about thirty hours in, because I play in small chunks, and am usually only able to finish one dungeon/questline/section of story before I have to sleep.

I've been hating on Eleanor for a while. She's the type of character I normally like (I guess? I don't even know anymore), but she pissed me off early in the game and I spent the last twenty-five hours looking forward to the day her world would come crashing down. The game disappointed me on that matter; while she definitely has a few moments of existential crisis, her reaction to the shattering of her world was pretty okay and, unforgivably, made me like her.

Her speaking habits remind me of Natalia (Abyss) - who I liked - and she actually grows as a damn character, which I also like, but--I enjoyed the anticipation of her breakdown! This is scary evidence that my world view probably aligns more with Velvet's, hahaha... haha...

So, relating with characters in RPGs is never a huge thing for me. The character's gender is irrelevant in most cases, especially as I get older, although if I have the choice of a female main, I'd rather. The bigger problem (as far as relating to characters in games goes) is that stories about a bunch of kids saving the world actually aren't a thing I relate to anymore. But I seem to be relating strongly with Velvet, and attaching Laphicet to Eleanor was kiiiind of a problem for me for a little bit. :P

But Eleanor also annoyed me all on her own. It was the strength of her belief in the Abbey, which just--I hated that. It looked like blind devotion. Eleanor has since proven that untrue, which is probably why I can't resist anymore, and have decided to confess that I like her.

2016 was a harsh year. It must have flipped some unfortunate switches in my brain.

My thoughts on everything else are a mixed bag of randomness.

I really like Magilou's quirkiness. XD She's awesome.

The music is pretty nice, but only a few tracks stick with me after I turn the game off. One of those is the music for the Abbey training grounds, which was an interesting mix--slightly creepy, but also just a light touch, and I thought it fit the bill for an organization that prizes reason over human decency.

Not getting any pairing vibes out of this game. If I had to point at something, I'd say the most blatant show of affection that borders on obsessive romantic is Theresa/Oscar, and uhhhh... it's basically every Fire Emblem brother/sister-not-pairing-we-swear that I've ever seen. Not romantic? Of course not, they're siblings! Except that the body language really toes the line and all that. Oh, and it seems like Laphicet has a crush on Velvet. :D Think he's a bit young for that, but that never stopped fandom before. I don't even want to know where they might've gone with Innominat and Artorius....

(If they haven't gone anywhere with that, I will be seriously disappointed. I actually haven't seen them interact yet, but who the fuck cares about characterization?)

Gosh but I like all of these Empyrean sigils. I want some for wallpapers.

So anyway, yeah, I would write Theresa/Oscar. Or... think about it. I probably won't really.

If I were to write fic, I'd also like writing about Eleanor. Ffff.

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Tales of Symphonia - taste the rainbow

Tales of Berseria makes me want to write fan fiction.

We're still playing FFXV, but--slowly, because it's a group exercise. Tales of Berseria is what I'm playing by myself, so y'know...

I only just started, though; I'm about 16 hours in, and it has already answered a ton of my questions about Zestiria. In a strange turn of events, I went to Google to find spoilers--specific ones--only to be foiled because apparently nobody is writing about what I want to know. Rude.

Aaaaand why would I look for spoilers? Well, Berseria came out about when I started my current class, and because my mind is speeding along, trying to make connections with Zestiria (and trying to determine if it's too late to write that search-for-Innominat's-history fic), it's really fucking hard to concentrate on reading and schoolwork! You'd think I would be better at this balancing act after such a long grind for my writing degree, but nope. Guess not. My brain is wired to resist homework.

Seriously, though, how's a person supposed to get any gaming done when life requirements like "be a functional member of society" and "don't fail your class" get in the way?

Anyway, Tales of Berseria = a happy place. It actually makes me feel fangirly.

I guess I'll have to use this hot Yuan icon until I can find one of Laphicet.

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Saiun - technicolor Reishin

Real quick Nanowrimo brainstorm.

At the beginning of the year, when setting my goals, I took Nano off the list--again--because it has a record of burning me out for one or two months after the finish line, and that's counter-productive re: the "write every day" goal.

But!

There's a yearly word count to meet on my goal sheet, and for the last two months, I have NOT been writing every day. I'm damn well going to meet that word count, so... there's some catching up to do, and Nano is as good a way as any to make up the deficit. Only problem is, since this wasn't in the plan, I also have nothing lined up that would work for a 50k word sprint. Technically you're not supposed to use something you're already working on, which I respect. However, as someone who tends to write long-form stories voluntarily anyway, I'm less inclined to follow the major rule, which insists you must work on a novel.

Options:

1. Come up with a new novel idea
Pros: this is the holy grail of Nanowrimo, and it's not like the story has to be good. I've got tons of one-liner ideas for stories.

Cons: even I hate working with nothing, and this is coming from someone who uses the pantser/Pratchett method of having a few cool ideas and wandering around to connect the dots while writing. Having "a few ideas" amounts to waaaay more guidance than you might think.

2. Use a novel idea/plan that isn't ready
Pros: there's more internal guidance for the story, as mentioned above. Doing this means writing something I already want to explore, so that's also cool, and I can get the connect-the-dots draft out of the way sooner. This way would definitely allow more thorough fleshing-out of characters and ideas I haven't been thinking about lately.

Cons: there are volumes of literature out there to invalidate a writer's assessment of their own work and whether or not it's ready, which amounts to, "Stop being afraid to start and just do it!" Sometimes the writer is right, though--it isn't ready. Starting before you aren't ready, legit, is a good way to stall and abandon a story, in my opinion. See: The Summer Chronicle. First of all, I started with a very vague idea. When it grew a surprise plot, that was cool! There was no planning involved in this, though; I got a long way in before finally stalling and writing myself into... if not a box, a situation where I did not want to continue because I hadn't adequately planned for one of my seat-of-the-pants plot twists. Is that story finished? Hahahah no.

That said, I was also kind of afraid to write Ashnard. So there's some truth to the "stop being afraid" thing.

3. Do the anthology-of-short-stories again
Pros: I get to write in smaller bites, and explore more than one idea.

Cons: This technically isn't an approved project type, unless Nano has changed. (Which is possible. I don't bother to look at the website anymore, because "Write 50k words in a month" is all I feel the need to know.) Also, this runs into the problem #1 has: using lots of story ideas that are ill-considered at best.

4. Ignore the rules and continue the current project anyway
Pros: no changes necessary right now!

Cons: This project definitely doesn't have fifty thousand words in it, which brings me to the problems mentioned in #1 and #3.

5. Use this opportunity to rewrite something long
Pros: This is much easier than coming up with something new; a lot of the work is done for me, and I have three projects like this sitting in the electronic drawer, waiting for rewriting. There are also long fanfic projects that fit this bill, if I don't feel like working on the originals.

Cons: Honesty is the best policy, and--I don't feel like working on that stuff right now. This kind of project can involve a ton of preparation and editorial work as well. I mean, if you're not going to seriously reconsider or re-plot or re-develop... why do the second draft? I think there's a good reason this isn't an "approved" sort of project for Nano.


I'm already late, so I need to decide by the end of today. Hmmmm. I'm leaning toward #2 or #3. I've done the anthology thing before, and it did expand my available pool of revisable work quite a bit, but... yeah, hm.

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Saiun - technicolor Reishin

Did I mention I'm lazy?

I must've last played FE: Fates back in March, because I remember slouching on the couch with my cat and swearing every time the wind chapter (Chapter 24, I think?) kicked my ass. Then bad things happened. I stopped playing. Haven't picked it up since.

(Do not doubt, however, that I would buy this Camilla figure in an instant. Holy shit! Give me a handsome big brother Xander figure and you can just have all my money, manufacturer, whoever you are. Just take it. Take it NOW.)

So maybe I should finish the damn game. I mean, just thinking about Xander motivates me. :P I went through the trouble of buying and downloading Birthright in March, back before 2016 fucked us over, and that's $50 just sitting there on my sim card, waiting to be worth something. Conquest feels so much like an alternate timeline that I'm expecting Birthright to be more fleshed out, buuuut... they could both end up feeling incomplete. Wouldn't surprise me to find out neither game can stand on its own without raising plot/character questions that it can't answer.

Me criticizing someone else's plotting = hilarious, yeah. I know.

Somewhat related, Tellius illustration/guidebooks are now a thing, although it's hard to imagine this fact escaped everyone before I typed today's entry. I snatched the Path of Radiance book up the moment I saw it in Kinokuniya - because I still love Tellius, even though I also hate it so much - and Goddess of Dawn looks like it's going to be released in November.

I swear that date said October 25th last time I looked. Sadface.

Anyway. Uhhh... I started writing the real version of that Genis-kidnapped-by-Cruxis story from way back? I need to bulk up my word count, you see, and whenever I'm stuck on my personal projects, fan fiction makes writing feel easy again. That probably means it's shit, but whatever. Wish fulfillment ftw.

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Fire Emblem: Fates has some surprisingly catchy music. I might buy the soundtrack. What I'm really waiting for is an illustration book or companion guide, though. Please do give me lots of Xander artwork. I'll buy it twice.

Not going to comment much on the game right now, though, except to rejoice in all of the cute sibling reunions and supports I'm getting now. :D I've been kind of lazy with supports, and to be honest, the romance bits - at least the interactions the avatar has - feel like a trainwreck. It must be the animation choices they made for the bonding/invite scenes. I get that Fire Emblem is a dating sim now, but let's preserve some dignity, shall we? :/

Can I romance Xander? Why didn't I check?! I'll take a blushing Xander any day.

Yeah, I'm bad at posting. Sorry.

We've been getting a lot of rain this week, which is amazing. It'd be perfect weather if rain didn't mean that our internet service has to crap out at regular intervals.

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Saiun - technicolor Reishin

Oops, lost track of time again.

We've been watching The Man in the High Castle all week. Highly recommended. The concept was neat, but what sold me was seeing the intro, since The Sound of Music is a childhood favorite of mine, and their use of Edelweiss made a strong impression on me. The Atlantic produced a short article on that, which is much smarter than my commentary would have been. (I also would've been less optimistic in my reading. :D)

Guess I have to read the book now.

We're convinced there's great potential in a spin-off involving certain shenanigans that star Frank and the antique shop dealer, whose name I've forgotten. I'd watch it.

We'll get back to our Wes Anderson binge while we're waiting.

I've been reading a lot to make up for last year's foot-dragging - currently Murakami's 1Q84, and before that I read both the Hunger Games and the Divergent trilogies, finally, after just about everybody else. Also, history books. And a fucking jury summons! That's good reading, right? I'm just about done typing italic tags, so I'll leave it there.

I set a word count goal for the year. There's an almost zero chance you're going to see anything I'm writing, so I'll spare you. It's a lot less satisfying than producing a story every week, though. Long goals are boring. And there's too much time for me to dwell on negativity.

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